At various points in my life I’ve been consumed by different things.
As a child the idea of being an adult consumed me. This had more to do with all of those great infomercials back in the day. *Must be 18 to order* I so wanted to be 18.
Entering “adulthood” I found myself consumed by worry and stress. College wasn’t working out very well and I was just starting to ruin my credit. I so wanted to be a kid again.
In my twenties I was consumed by alcoholism, nicotine and other addictions. I wanted to do whatever I could to make myself forget about myself. I so wanted to not be.
From my late twenties to early thirties the Jaycees consumed me. I wanted to do, do, do in my community and it got in the way of the rest of my life and my job. I so wanted others to be.
A year ago this blog consumed me. Today I found notes at work from when I first started. I haven’t taken notes since then. A year ago I would have three, four and even five posts scheduled to go. I so wanted to be read.
Today, in the sense of “Now”, my work consumes me. This is good though. I average 60 hours a week, but I enjoy it. I like what I do and strive to be better each day. I so want to be the best me.
I wonder how long it will take me to get all of this life stuff all balanced out. I can be. I can be a kid again. I can help other be. I can be read. All at the same time. But when? Hopefully soon.
It’s officially been 16 days since my last post. I don’t see them coming at a quicker rate in the near or distant future. Please hang in there though, I’m still around.