I often think of myself as a sort of Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, in regards to pre-Church and post-Church. I’m basically the same person I was…but not really. It’s exceptionally complicated and extraordinarily simple, all at the same time.
I happened to learn a lesson from one of my favorite movies a few years ago. The Fighter stars Mark Wahlberg and Christian Bale as real life brothers “Irish” Micky Ward and Dicky Ekland. We watch as Micky tries to better his boxing career and is eventually able to gain a title fight, with the help of his brother Dicky. We also see the rough road Dicky travels down with drug addiction. Dicky is being filmed by HBO, for what he thinks is his comeback documentary. They are really filming him for a documentary called Crack in America. Things happen, people fight, people make up…and they live happily ever after. (No exactly…but I don’t want to give it all away.)
In the DVD extras you can see Mark and Christian interacting with Micky and Dicky on set. They would often worry that either one of the brothers might “blow the whistle” on how they were being portrayed…but that never happened. When asked about this Dicky explained “If I didn’t want people to see or know about all the bad stuff I did, I shouldn’t have done it.” This hit me.
I’m pretty open about myself and my family…not sure if they like that too much though. I do live with a completely different lifestyle now as opposed to pre-Church. I’ve quit drinking and quit smoking. I don’t frequent the bars Every Day anymore, but I am reminded of it. There are pictures showing this “party” past, online. When I started going to Church I un-tagged myself in most of them, not to hide them though…I did it because I didn’t want to see them.
People still see them and comment, and I get embarrassed sometimes, but I try to look at it the same way Dicky does. If I didn’t want people to know about that stuff…I shouldn’t have done it in the first place.
I’m also more aware of what I do nowadays, so I always think before I upload, post, pin, tag, write or say something. I make sure that it’s something that I can be proud of…or at least not be un-proud of. My Facebook is open…If you have a question I’ll answer it. I figure if I have something to hide…I’m probably doing the wrong thing.
I think this could change in the future though. Right now it’s just me. I’m sure I can protect myself if I need to. You throw in a wife and kids…the game’s going to change. Not sure if I need to worry about that for a while though.
Now, I don’t want you to think that I’m saying these things are wrong. People drink, smoke and party – it’s a part of life. All I’m saying is that they were wrong for me.
Daily Prompt: Do Not Disturb – How do you manage your online privacy? Are there certain things you won’t post in certain places? Information you’ll never share online? Or do you assume information about you is accessible anyway?
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