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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hide

I often think of myself as a sort of Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, in regards to pre-Church and post-Church. I’m basically the same person I was…but not really. It’s exceptionally complicated and extraordinarily simple, all at the same time.

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (film)
The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (film) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I happened to learn a lesson from one of my favorite movies a few years ago. The Fighter stars Mark Wahlberg and Christian Bale as real life brothers “Irish” Micky Ward and Dicky Ekland. We watch as Micky tries to better his boxing career and is eventually able to gain a title fight, with the help of his brother Dicky. We also see the rough road Dicky travels down with drug addiction. Dicky is being filmed by HBO, for what he thinks is his comeback documentary. They are really filming him for a documentary called Crack in America. Things happen, people fight, people make up…and they live happily ever after. (No exactly…but I don’t want to give it all away.)

English: Irish Micky Ward at the River Rock Ca...
English: Irish Micky Ward at the River Rock Casino, Richmond, British Columbia, Canada. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

In the DVD extras you can see Mark and Christian interacting with Micky and Dicky on set. They would often worry that either one of the brothers might “blow the whistle” on how they were being portrayed…but that never happened. When asked about this Dicky explained “If I didn’t want people to see or know about all the bad stuff I did, I shouldn’t have done it.” This hit me.

I’m pretty open about myself and my family…not sure if they like that too much though. I do live with a completely different lifestyle now as opposed to pre-Church. I’ve quit drinking and quit smoking. I don’t frequent the bars Every Day anymore, but I am reminded of it. There are pictures showing this “party” past, online. When I started going to Church I un-tagged myself in most of them, not to hide them though…I did it because I didn’t want to see them.

Here I am working at a Haunted house a few years ago. The cup contains Crown and Coke...the smoke is a menthol.
Here I am working at a Haunted house a few years ago. The cup contains Crown and Coke…the smoke is a menthol.

People still see them and comment, and I get embarrassed sometimes, but I try to look at it the same way Dicky does. If I didn’t want people to know about that stuff…I shouldn’t have done it in the first place.

A bar in Texas, Gruene Hall...with Sangria in front of me.
A bar in Texas, Gruene Hall…with Sangria in front of me.

I’m also more aware of what I do nowadays, so I always think before I upload, post, pin, tag, write or say something. I make sure that it’s something that I can be proud of…or at least not be un-proud of. My Facebook is open…If you have a question I’ll answer it. I figure if I have something to hide…I’m probably doing the wrong thing.

I think this could change in the future though. Right now it’s just me. I’m sure I can protect myself if I need to. You throw in a wife and kids…the game’s going to change. Not sure if I need to worry about that for a while though.

Now, I don’t want you to think that I’m saying these things are wrong. People drink, smoke and party – it’s a part of life. All I’m saying is that they were wrong for me.

Daily Prompt: Do Not Disturb – How do you manage your online privacy? Are there certain things you won’t post in certain places? Information you’ll never share online? Or do you assume information about you is accessible anyway?

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12 thoughts on “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hide

  1. I think in your situation it’s not a bad thing for people to see how you have changed. You can teach people that it is possible to be happy and not spend all your time in a bar.

  2. Those of us over 40 are lucky because most of the stupid things we did were before it was so easy to put them on the internet. If we are really lucky someone destroyed the negatives before our kids find them and digitize them.
    Not trying to hide them but, like you, don’t like to be reminded of them either.

  3. Personally, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with the lifestyle you had, nor the one you have now. At one point you choose to live one way. At another point you choose to live another. Because the two lifestyles are almost completely different doesn’t mean that you should hide from them. In fact, you can use the old pictures to show what kind of change you’re capable of.

  4. Hey man, we’re all human. This life thing is an endless list of really difficult multiple choice questions. Also, The Fighter was an excellent flick. Loved that movie.

  5. Before I was friends with you, I didn’t even know our town had a bar, let alone several that could be visited all in one night. That’s ok though. I don’t like being oblivious. My dad did some crazy stuff as a kid and my mom would never let him tell stories about it– she didn’t want my brothers to get ideas. But they came up with plenty of crazy pranks on their own. I think it’s okay some day when you have kids to tell them, hey I tried all that stuff and believe me, it wasn’t cool like people make it sound. It was lame. The worse thing would be to hide it and then have them find out and be disillusioned.
    My opinion: drinking and smoking are bad but drinking and smoking don’t make someone a bad person.

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