I think I’ve talked about this a few times before, but I feel the need to address this again.
I want everyone to know that I did not quit drinking for Church or Religious reasons. That may be part of the reason why I’ve continued to not partake in drinks of the alcohol variety, but it is not why I quit in the first place. I was still drinking when I first met the Missionaries. I quit before I decided to join the Church, before I decided to get baptized. I quit because – wait for it – I had a drinking problem. I am a recovering alcoholic, but I don’t want that to define me.
I still go out. I still know how to have fun. I can spend an entire night inside a bar, no problem, except for stinky clothes and a bit of a cough in the morning. I don’t think that the fact that I don’t drink makes me better, or the fact that you do drink makes you worse. Sometimes I go out, and people say “What are you doing here?” I get lonely, every once in a while. Sadly, I have to go to the bar to see some of my friends. But the good times we have, are never sad.
I often get complimented on the path I’ve taken. There are many Good Jobs, Way to gos, and I couldn’t do its. Someone last night told me that they admired my dedication to staying sober. I can tell many people are proud of me, because they say so. I’m not trying to brag. I just want to show how great my friends are. They ask me “How’s the drinking thing going?” Or “How’s the smoking thing going?” It’s wonderful to be able to say that both are still going.
I’m no different now than what I was a year ago. Okay, that’s not true. I’m heavier, but I’m healthier. I’m grayer, but my eyes are brighter. I’m older, but my heart is younger. I still have the same interest. (Hello all things geek, nerd and inherently awesome!) I still have the same sense of humor. (You know how to make a tissue dance? Put a little boogie in it! Thank Footloose for this one.) I still know how to have fun. Ain’t no party like a Brother Jon party, cause a Brother Jon party don’t stop….until about eleven or so. Remember, I am older.
Yes, I don’t drink. But, I don’t mind if you do. I told a guy the other day that I’m less judgmental now than I was before I joined the Church. I meant this. I understand that the only thing that I can control is my attitude, my temperament, myself. Thank you to all of the people that have been there for me, and have kept me in check. Your love and support is greatly appreciated.
11 Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge.12 There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another? ~ James 4: 11-12